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Friday, July 30, 2010

In My Head...Zombies?

"If you knew I was dying, would it change you? If you knew I was dying would it change anything?"

I have a reason. That's the reason I'm going to die.

"When I fly solo, I fly so high...don't touch me now."

They talk about the "answers." They temporarily satisfy their curiosity by drawing seemingly logical conclusions. What do you know? Sometimes I like to think there's nothing to be found.

Are you tired of being alone?

I feel like a funeral.

Shake it out.

Dear Snotti,
I fucking miss you, so much.

Dear Rinky,
Dude, I'm so fucking nostalgic right now. I miss you and all our crazy shit.

My heart's in my throat. It itches and I can't speak. Maybe I'll shower...rinse with listerine. Fuck.

I'm moving. Soon. Really soon.

It's about time for another disappearing act. I'm sooo fucking good at that.

Stop waiting for me. I don't deserve it.

I'm so much better flying solo.

Maybe I'll fake my own death. That's sort of like trying to resurrect a dead scene though. Fuck this bus. I'm not indefinite, I've got a life span, albeit short.

You're just a glitch.

I am just a glitch.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Vacant Beds

I'm so good at talking shit

Heart attack

But I'm the apple of your eye anyway

Oh, we're so controversial

You admit to the truth

I am the best at what I do

Between my tongue and your heart

No grace

I'll keep it in check

But you're bursting through the seams

I fly so high

Don't touch me now

Save yourself from hope and disappointment

Boy, you have everything you need

Give yourself over to time

Give yourself over to decay

Arguments

Objections

I wake up to dream with the brave

The defiant

My self motivation?

It's here

Thursday, July 22, 2010

First Day From Prison

A boy without a soul.
He will nod, smile.
He will show me his hands, thick enough for a pale throat.
He will leave burn marks, scars.
He will cut deep.
He will kiss so hard, I lie.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Lettersx5

Dear ****b,
You are, just this once.

Dear *****d,
If I could only hold your heart and never beat again. If I could only hold your heart I'd never beat again.

Dear ******k,
On and on, you told me I was wrong then, please tell me I'll be wrong again; a heart behind glass in a tower of stone, I smuggled the spark that led the forest fire home.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Lettersx4

Dear ****b,
I don't see you enough to hate you. Let's keep it that way.

Dear *****d,
I'm burning like a bridge for your body.

Whoa. This shit just got really fucking weird.

Dear ******k,
If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Lettersx3

Dear ****b,
You almost died yesterday. Cool story bro.

Dear *****d,
You make me want to punch you in the face and jump your bones at the same time.

Dear ******k,
The next time I see you, you're going to rip my throat out.